Travel

About to take off to NYC. Funny how I have been looking forward to a break but yet I already miss my baby boy so much. He is so much a part of me if feels strange to know I will be so far from him. Trying to put these thoughts out of my mind and just enjoy this time to myself. Everyone needs that right?

Water

We had so much fun in the lake today. It was hot & sunny and the water was so refreshing. Funny how simple things like cool water on a hot make your life spectacular.

Dream

I had a dream about Gran last night. She was standing right there with me but yet I knew she was gone. She had left me a book full of letters & poems to me. To my younger sister she had left a beautiful apartment full of gorgeous things that my sister didn't even care about.

Live and Let Live

Wow, I drank WAY too much wine last night. It was bottomless so needless to say I was getting my money's worth. All that fun led to a rough Monday for me. It also led to me saying "Never again..." not just about the wine but about the way I've been treating my body in general. I'm not getting any younger and I am FOR SURE not getting any healthier.

As I was practicing yoga (more like doing legs up a wall because my feet were so swollen from all the salt I consumed today) I pondered the quote "Live and Let Live". I've heard it a thousand times from various people & places. I guess I applied it differently tonight. You know how there are 2 types of people: the ones who don't talk a whole lot about what they are going to do but just DO IT and those who talk A LOT but never really do anything?

I guess I have a bit of both of those people in me. Certain things like taking adventures, moving across the country, choosing a career at random because it interested me at the moment....those things I DO. Running, practicing yoga seriously, blogging (eh hem), riding my bike to cool new places, cooking beautiful food....these are things I talk about a lot but never seem to JUST DO IT.

My MR doesn't do a lot of talking but makes a lot of things happen. Sometimes I even give him a hard time about the fact that he does certain things, walks out on a limb, takes a chance exploring something that he's not sure about. I guess I just realized tonight that I may be a little envious of this in him. Hmm..something to think about.

Other things I want to think about:

• Practicing Creativity
• Letting myself fail (and being ok with it)
• How I've been lazy...I really don't want to be a lazy person.

20 Instructions for Life by The Dalai Lama

1.Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

 

 

2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

 

 

3. Follow the three R’s:

• Respect for self,
• Respect for others and
• Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

 

 

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

 

 

6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

 

 

7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

 

 

8. Spend some time alone every day.

 

 

9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.

 

 

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

 

 

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and

think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.

 

 

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

 

 

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.

 

 

14. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality.

 

 

15. Be gentle with the earth.

 

 

16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.

 

 

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

 

 

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

 

 

19. If you want others to be happy, practice compassion.

 

 

20. If you want to be happy, practice compassion

Iced Coffe & Lunch

Right now:

• I'm sipping a wonderfully delicious iced coffee
• Levi is eating pumpernickel toast, goat cheese, apple sauce & almonds for lunch
• The Muppets are on TV
• The MR is pulling apart my entire Volvo trying to fix my squeaky dash
• It is GORGEOUS outside and I'm planning what our afternoon will hold (Trip to the lake??)

Tonight we will have a detailed discussion about discipline/rules of the house to begin enforcing with our 2 year old. I'm afraid he has entered the terrible two's. I'm not quite sure how I feel about that label. I think I will refer to this time as "Levi's fight for independence". I do hate all the scoldings and constantly telling him "NO!" but I can only hope we are doing the right thing for him. I want him to be sweet & lovely. My hope is that if we lay down the rules and be consistent with consequences when he breaks them that he will move past this phase quickly and with flying colors.

Also, I have pondering our way of life. Where we live, HOW we live, what we eat, our general attitudes about life. I so wish I could hop into an issue of Kinfolk and live there. It seems so wonderful. Simple gatherings with family and friends, fresh food, beautiful surroundings, animals, gardens. "Oh Darling, lets be adventurers" is pinned by everyone I know, but who really lives like this? I think I used to, but lately....? I get bored so easily when life becomes mundane.

Anyway, here are my loves "sugglin" (snuggling) the other night

Today is Saturday

It feels like I haven't been to work in ages. In actual time it's been 4 days. With still 1 more day at home.


Today I'm thankful for:


Summer days that are sunny with a slight breeze.


The fact that it's still light outside. It is 9:20pm.


Grilled steak & yummy veggies.


Walks with my boys that don't end in crying and frustration but with a sweat on my brow and a smile on my face.


Being able to dream and believe that anything is still possible. Tonight's dream: moving to the country, raising horses, goats and chickens and being happy as clams never leaving our property.


Thank you for this Saturday.

First Blog Post

Well, here it is. THE first post. It's funny because I do almost everything in life on a whim. If it's not on a whim I talk myself out of it or become bored with the idea and erase it from my mind before it ever happens. All that to say, the other night I thought I should start a new blog. Not tell anyone about it, not plaster it on my FB page, but create a place that I can send my thoughts out into the universe and hope that by publishing those said thoughts, dreams, wishes, maybe some truth or validation will come to my words.

It's my challenge to take 5 minutes everyday (or almost everyday) to ponder my life, this world, the people I love. Maybe put out some gratitude and appreciate these things I have.

Truth is all I ask of myself. Usually I don't bring truth. I bring fun, happy, lightness, joy but truth is something deeper that I would love to express. To see if that soul is deep down there. I like to keep it hidden and in the dark. This is me practicing coming into the light.

Right now I'm feeling:

• Totally bummed & confused because I've been fighting with the MR for 3 days
•  Defeated because my 2 year old is a beast. Hitting, scratching,head butting, screaming and pulling my hair if I say or do anything he doesn't like.
• Happy to be drinking a Brooklyn Brewery Summer Ale
• Relieved that it's Friday...I've been home for 2 days and still have 2 days ahead of me.
• Beyond excited that my sister-in-law and family are moving to Minneapolis in 3 1/2 weeks! 
• A smile creep across my face listening to a little boy singing the opening song from The Lion King (lots of African words) at the TOP of his lungs